Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Christmas, EVERYONE!!!!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Superstars


Hey looky here! Matt and Kourtland made it Dirk Nowitzki's website when they were at the game. I just took a picture of the screen b/c I wasn't sure if we could link it or how long it would remain posted!!


How awesome is that???


Domestic Diva!!????

In an effort to try to eat at home more we bought this cute little Menu Planner! I have had it about 2 months and have yet to use it so tonight I put it to use!


What do you think????


I know, I ROCK!!!!!!! LOL!!!! :o)

Friday, December 12, 2008

Oh Happy Day!

Matt got a call to sub this morning! Yea, hopefully this will help get him a job next year. Keep your fingers crossed! If he doesn't get a job here we will probably move, AGAIN!!! So better yet keep ALL your fingers crossed!!!

Spanks!

Monday, December 8, 2008

Non-Excitement

Well such is my life nowadays! Nothing too exciting going on here. I figured just for the sake of blogging I would let you in on a few things we have done lately.

So for Christmas this year I am boycotting ALL toy purchases! I will not buy another toy for my boys nor will I let them keep toys from anyone! Mean, I know! I am so tired of finding them laying around their room and listening to them fight over who left them in the floor! Plus, they are too old for toys anymore anyways.



My solution for a NON-TOY Christmas was: think of a nice, expensive gift that you would like to have and we will do that and a few fun things. IT worked! They were fine with it. So Kourtland chose a basketball game, but not just any game this game......the Dallas Mavericks and Phoenix Suns.



Matt says Kourtland has a "man crush" on Dirk Nowitzki! He was really excited and picked this game b/c of Steve Nash, Shaq, Dirk and a few others, but he talked about it FOREVER!!! They also went to Dave and Busters and had a good time.


Now Kadence wants to go to a basketball camp, those are pricey! But, we have yet to find one close by until spring time! So we are still working on that one. I was thinking a new flat screen T.V. for their bedroom. They play video games and watch movies in there and their little 19" t.v. is pretty old! We shall see!


We also got to do this:

Kourtland sold popcorn for scouts and he sold the most in his pack so he won the prize to tour the University of Arkansas sports facilities. We got to go in the locker rooms, stadiums, and meet players and get autographs! It was a great time! They are sitting inside the locker room in these pictures in the same seats the players SIT in!! LOL!!!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Happy Almost Thanksgiving


We did Thanksgiving with Matt's parents on Saturday. His brother Chuck came and the Missionaries came. Thanks for taking the picture guys!!!


It was a nice evening highlighted with Kaleaha ralphing during the "Missionary Message" and Slinky marking his territory every now and then! :o) He had never been there before and he was having a hay day! He hasn't peed or pooed in the house in 4ever, but he sure sprinkled a few times over there!!! He is still the best dog in the world. We really enjoy him!!!


So now we are all geared up for Thanksgiving Day, the 3 day work week (for me. Matt and the boys are off all week), Branson, shopping and any other fun that happens to come our way!!!


Well not much more excitement for tonight! Other than the fact that ALL the boys in my house are offically grossed out by my AWFUL GAS tonight!!!! And I must admit it is BAD!!!! :o) LOL!!! I don't know what they expect though I do live with a house full of boys!!!! I am a fast learner!!!

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Beauty & The Beast


My cousin Deron was in a play for his High School. They did Beauty and The Beast! He did so good. He was Lumier and he was awesome! He had a few solos and he sang wonderfully! I didn't take my real camera but, here is a picture from my cell phone of him and the boys!


Good job Deron!!!


Friday, November 21, 2008

And last, but not least....


My sister in law took this pic of me back in July! For those of you who don't know...I have a small obsession with Will Smith. I have been known to tell Matt he is the only man I would leave him for!!! (all in good fun, of course)


So when the opportunity to kiss him presented itself I had to take it!!!! He was just there and already puckered up and ready and everything!!! AAhhhhh!!!! He is so HOT!!! :o) OOhhh.............anywho here is the picture!!!



How cute is this???


Is that not the cutest thing??? Lukas had Matt's sunglasses on and his little tongue stuck out!!! Almost the cutest little thing ever!!! (mine were the cutest, of course!)

Pictures........

Ok, so remember when I told the Chuck E. Cheese story? I couldn't get my pictures off of my phone for some reason and I did tonight so here are the funny pics that go with that post. If you didn't read the post you should check it out! It was funny!!!

Kadence sad cause his pizza is gone!!! Our pizza and Matt's drink on the table behind us after they got caught and left it on the table!!

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Just for laughs

So I was looking through pictures the other day and here are a few fun ones that I found. Enjoy!! Sorry, I don't have anything else too exciting to blog about.







Kadence with Juicy Lips!




Me with Juicy Lips!




My Mom and Dad in the Good ole days!!! Emphasis on the Good OLE!!! LOL!!!
Love you Mom and Dad!!!

Deep thoughts..........

I would just like you to answer me this......


Would you be here on earth IF you parents were of the same sex????


Why is it so hard for people to get that marriage is between a MAN and WOMAN? I think it is plain ole common sense..............what do you think???



marriage Pictures, Images and Photos

Monday, November 10, 2008

Football Pics

Well, I don't have much to blog about so here are some football pictures from the boys teams this year. I will try to think of something clever to blog about in the next few days!!! (I know you are on the edge of your seats...) (Laura G.) LOL!!!!!!!!!!!



Anywho here are my cute boys......











Sunday, November 9, 2008

I am a WOMAN....

Ok, so I am a woman and am allowed to change my mind! Right??? That whole private thing was a pain in the arse!!!! I couldn't take it anymore. So anyways back to the ole anybody whose anybody can read my blog! :o) Enjoy!

Is this good enough for a few days, Laura G????? I will get a post up sooner or later. Trying to think of something good!

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Lukas



Ok, so does it make me a bad mother that tonight I didn't take any pictures of MY kids at the festival? I took several of this little booger!!! He is so cute!!!













Are you kidding me???


Can you believe that this cake did not win best dessert??? I mean really folks!!!!!!!! It wouldn't be so bad if the one that won was cooler than mine, but NO it was a chocolate cake with friggin nuts on the top!!!!! What the h#llo kitty???? Oh well................


Halloween Fun!!!

Look at this wonderful cake we made as a family for the Fall Festival at church tonight! We had a lot of fun with this. The boys each decorated a side of the pumpkin with candy. This was a really fun project. I found the idea on http://www.bhg.com/. If you go there just search Monster Face Cake. It was really easy it's just 2 cake mixes made in a bunt pans, frosting, and random candy to make the faces! Enjoy!!!















That is Kourtland's side! He gave his a mustache!!! LOL!!!


And, Kadence with his side of the pumpkin!!






Sunday, October 26, 2008

Trip to the Pumpkin Patch!!

Kourtland
Kadence
The boys and I with the sun in our faces!!!


Here are a few pictures from our trip to the pumpkin patch today after church. You can really tell that the sun was out since we are squinting in most of them, but it was fun anyways!!! Enjoy!!!




Lukas & his pumpkin

Mom stood him up and then ran so I could get this picture




Saturday, October 25, 2008

Today's To Do List...

So here is typical Saturday in my life.............

9:00 a.m. Wedding
10:00-12:00 Skating Party
1:00-3:00 Kourtland Football game
3:30 Kadence at field house for bus to his game
5:30-7:ish Kadence Football game

Atleast an hour drive home, I'm sure. Unless Grace and I decide to go to Fayetteville to do some mall walking, I mean shopping!!!!! That will make it an even later night, but so worth it!

Ya tired yet? I am!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

I got tagged.........

I don't know if I can do this, but here we go...........

8 Favorite T.V. shows
1. Desperate Housewives
2. CSI Miami
3. CSI NY
4. CSI
5. The Hills (I know, I'm 30 years old)
6. Little People, Big World
7. Jon and Kate plus 8
8. All reality Dancing Shows i.e. Dancing w/ the Stars, SYTYCD, you get the idea.

8 Favorite Restaurants
1. Red Lobster
2. Lonestar
3. Catfish Cove
4. Applebees
5. Bajio (might be considered fast food, but I love it!)
6. Cold Stone.........not a restaurant, but I'm counting it!
7. Chili's
8. Golden Corral

8 Things that happened yesterday
1. Didn't go to work.......sick for 4 days!
2. Slept till 12:30 (HEAVEN!!!)
3. Actually watched Days of our Lives (you really can still know what's going on)
4. Slept some more :o)
5. Went to football game and practice
6. Played with Lukas
7. Showered kids
8. Took Nyquil and slept some MORE!!!

8 Things I look forward to
1. Matt getting a teaching job
2. The future
3. My kids getting older and moving out.........did I say that???!!! Ha!
4. Thanksgiving
5. Christmas
6. My Anniversary
7. Presents from the 2 mentioned above!!!
8. Growing old with Matthew

8 Things I love about Fall
1. Cooler weather
2. The leaves changing colors on the trees
3. Sweaters!!!!!!!!!
4. Hot Chocolate
5. Football is almost over
6. Thanksgiving and Christmas prep begins!
7. Halloween
8. Decorating for the Holidays

8 Things on my Wish List
1. Matt to get a job close so we don't have to move
2. If we have to move for a job, it better be an awesome move!
3. To be debt free
4. To maybe buy a house. I kinda like living for free though. Decisions!!!
5. To spontaneously lose 20 more pounds while eating only ice cream!!!
6. Ok, to really lose 20 more pounds by the first of the year
7. I wish my kids would stop whining so much. Got a magic genie for that one? Anyone????
8. I would wake up one morning with perky, small C boobs!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL!!!!!!!!!!!! FOR REAL, THOUGH!!!! Without the cost and pain of surgery!!!! Now really if you know a magic genie for that one pass him/her my way!!!!!


Ha, ha! That was fun! Took some time and you will notice some of my answers were a stretch, but I got tired of putting it off so I just went for it.

I am tagging the following people.......and you better do it. I know where you live!!! Most of you!!!

Chana
Laura
Stank
Kristina
Tiffany
Renee

.....and anyone else who might be interested! I was supposed to tag 8, but I don't think I have 8 regular readers.

Oh, and Thanks Sarah that was a wonderful waste of time!!! LOL!!!! :o)

My BYU-I girls

I don't think I ever posted about my BYU-I girls when they came in. We had a great time and I don't think I have laughed so hard in a long time. For as miserable as most of my Rexburg job was these 2 girls made it all worth while. I love you Becky and Sunny!!!!!!!!!!

We went to Silver Dollar City, shopped at the outlet malls, went to a Razorback game and just hung out. It was an awesome week!! (that's what she said!) And we said that A LOT!!!! They really are great and I am so thankful that I got to meet them!!! Here are a few pictures of our fun!!

Sunny, Me and Becky! GO HOGS!!!!!!
Sunny and Kadence in front and Becky and Kourtland
Me and Matt in front with the camera (illegally, they aren't
allowed on the rides!!)

Oh, my.......

Gas Prices Pictures, Images and Photos






This picture and wording were too cute to pass up. My story has a better ending!!! :o)

I just wanted to let everyone know that I filled up my car today and for the first time in a LONG time it didn't cost a small fortune. I was pretty close to the gas light coming so on, so pretty empty and it only cost $36.00 for FILL my car up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This deserves an OH, MY HECK!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL!!!!

(I hate that phrase for those of you who don't know that!) Does anyone in the world say Oh, my hell? I didn't think so!

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Cousins


Look at how cute these 2 boys are!!! We are so glad to have Lukas here in Arkansas with us. It is fun to play with a baby and then RETURN him!!! :o) He is so much fun! He loves me the best and loves to laugh and smile. They boys L.O.V.E. him!!!!

My surrogate Niece





This is my cute surrogate Niece. For all you faithful readers you know that I am not really allowed to be around my REAL niece.

This is Kylie and she is so sweet. I love her to pieces. This is another CEC trip with my best friend Shelly and her 6 kids!!!!!!! Kylie wanted to go draw our picture. We did 2 one with our tongues out and this one. We each got to keep one and she chose the tongue one. Isn't she cute???

She calls Matt my daddy? If he is not with me she will always say "Where is your Daddy?" It is so cute. I'll say my Daddy is in Van Buren, but my husband is at __________. Then she will say "Oh, yeah Matt is your husband!" I just love her to death! She's a cutie pie!!!

Chuck E. Cheese Adventure

Chuck E. Cheese Pictures, Images and Photos


So a few weeks ago we went to Chuck E. Cheese for a school fundraiser. We had eaten our pizza and gone to play games when Kadence found me and said "Mom, I want some more pizza." I had already boxed it all up and had it on the table ready to go so I went over with him to help him out.

And would you believe that a woman and her son were sitting at the table behind ours eating our leftover pizza out of the to go box and drinking Matt's drink?????!!!!!!!! I'm not kidding either!!!!

I asked her if she got the food and drink off of our table and she said "No,No!" (she was Mexican and tried to speak a no english) I was so ticked! I told her YES, you did!!! I went to find the manager so he could kick them out or atleast say something to her, but they took off. Can you believe that though? I was shocked! I guess they needed that free food so they could play some games.

We got a "free" pizza out of the deal, but I was still so mad. I mean they were even drinking out of Matt's straw! Gross!!!!!!!!! I took some pictures with my phone and for some reason they won't load onto my computer. They were of the food in the to go box and Kadence with a pouty, hungry and sad face. So just use your imagination. And next time to go to Chuck E. Cheese leave an armed guard at your table with your leftovers!!!!

WHY ME????????????? UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Looky here...........

I FINALLY figured out how to change the background on my blog!!!!!!!!!!! I'm a genius!!!! Thank you, thank you very much!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Anyone......




Well, this is really just kind of a mercy post. I have just been thinking a lot lately about life and when mine will seem normal! I know to some this may not make any sence, but let me fill you in a bit.

Matt has finally finished his degree! We worked really hard to get that done and I am so proud of him for doing it! Now we moved back to Arkansas from Idaho and figured he could get a job, no problem. Well, the school year has started and he didn't get a job. So he has a degree and is still in a factory! Which is fine there is nothing wrong with the factory, but we worked so hard to get that piece of paper! So with no guarantee of a job for next school year either should we try to look in other places for jobs and move again or stay and hope for the best?

He applied so many places and didn't even get an interview! That is discouraging! I have a good job and good hours and we don't really want to move. The kids don't want to move, but we need to get his career going. And then where should we look to move to?? Arizona, Utah, Texas, Missouri, Idaho? NOT Oklahoma! I refuse to live there!!! I just don't know. I know we need to pray about it and we will when it gets closer and the final decision needs to be made. I have just been stressing about it A LOT lately. Mostly b/c I don't want to move again. The kids are happy to be back and they love being around family and so do I, but I LOVED living away too! There is something to be said about "coming home" and it just being a visit.

I don't know! Just bored and figured I would blog about it and get some feedback from the masses of readers that I have!!! LOL!!!! Oh blessed are the few and faithful!!! (Thanks family and Laura) :o)

So who has the magic answer and who wants to bribe me to move closer to them???? I'm open for options here!!!

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Mind your own d@m! business......





Ok, so just when I said I didn't have anything to blog about check this out! Today is Sunday and I was having some MAJOR pre-menstrual crampage all through church. I gave in and stopped by Wal-Mart on the way home for some Pamprin MAX cause I was getting kinda biznatchy...if you know what I mean!

Anywho, I was running in for medicine so I left the boys in the car...locked, AC blasting and 3 spaces away from the front door! (keep in mind they are 11 & 8) I have never in ALL of their years left them in a car while I went into a store. This was the absolute first time. I am in line to check out and Kadence (11) comes in crying and telling me that some lady walked around the car and wrote down my tag number! I told him I didn't care go get back in the car with your brother! NOW!!!!

I come out get in the car and lecture him about how he was safer in the locked car and I understood him being scared, but he should have never gotten out. What if he hadn't found me right away? I don't even want to think about it! So, I am like ticked out of my mind and PMS'ing the the whole way home. Right when we pull into the drive way he tells me the lady had the nerve to ask him when he was coming into the store where the baby was? He said what baby? My brother is in the car, but he is 8!!! She basically calls him a liar and tells him to get back into the car!!!

Why the H#LL didn't you tell me that while we were still in the parking lot? I would have seriously found her and probably been in the back of a police car! She really scared the crap out of my kids for no reason. I did nothing wrong, I did not break any laws and if there had been a baby in the car I could understand her "concern" but this was just plain being too d@m! nosey. Don't you think??? If she was THAT concerned she could have really checked the car over good to make sure there wasn't a small child inside. My kids were in no danger for the whole 4-5 minutes I was inside.

If the car was turned off and it was blazing hot and the windows up or down I could see her point. I just don't understand what she was trying to accomplish with this one. It sure got my blood boiling I can tell you that! Good job nosey bi@....hefer! Can you tell I've had some time to cool down?

Go ahead....tell me I'm a bad mother!!! LOL!!!! I really don't think I was in the wrong? Haven't any of you left your kids in the car? And really I waited until they were 11 & 8 to do it for the first time!!!!

Saturday, August 16, 2008

BLOG LOOOOOSER..............

I am sorry I am such a loser at blogging, but you see nothing exciting happens in my life! It is about to get much more "not exciting". School is starting so that means football is starting.....hooray! And I don't type that with enthusiasm!

I get so worn out from all the practices and games and working 2 jobs and taking care of my house and so on and so on. I know I shouldn't complain, but dang it!!! How do people have more than 2 kids, I don't get it!!!! I guess I am not "supermom" enough. I love the sports and watching them. (not that I have a choice, I live with all boys) With that said sometimes I just long for the days of coming home from work and lounging on the couch with the remote control. (in my control)

On the flip side of that Hallelujah school is starting! I am so excited. Even though I work the exact same hours the boys are in school I am so glad they are going back. They are too, they love school.

Matt didn't get a teaching job this year, if you can believe that. He is not happy about it either. So he it stuck in the factory job for atleast one more year. Atleast he will make more money this year than he would if he was teaching!!! LOL!!! We have about decided that if he doesn't get one next year by mid summer we will start applying in other places and if we have to move, we have to move. We sure don't want to, but he worked too hard for that degree!!! My kids do not want to move!!! EVER, they say! So life should get exciting next summer for us!

Well, there is a little mini update on my wonderful life! Oh, and I finally get to be a "real aunt" and I am loving it! I love that little booger!! He is so cute and he knows that I am his favorite aunt cause he smiles when I TELL him that I am! I had him laughing so much in sacrament last week he had the hiccups! It was cute, maybe not sacrament appropriate, but cute none the less! Anywho, shout out peeps!!! :o)

Saturday, June 14, 2008

Purse update

Smooth Criminal...




I never blogged about this story b/c it ticks me off!!! I will now let you in on my major source of frustration for the last few months. The last week in April someone busted the window out of my car at the ball park and stole my purse. In my purse of course was my wallet, checkbook, DL, social security cards (me & the boys), debit card, credit cards, a $50 gift card, a paycheck, NO CASH, uuummmm oh master keys to the apartments, and a few things that I just can't recall at this moment. Oh and it was my brand new Prada purse and Coach wallet!!!! Sucks I know!!

I was very scared for a long time cause they knew where I lived and esentially had keys to get in!! We found from some video footage at a gas station that it was a black man. He used my debit card to fill his gas tank and drove to Tunica, Mississippi where he got someone to write 4 checks to 4 different casino's all to the tune of $4800!!! And they got away with it!! Thus the smooth criminal pic.

They did a piss poor job of signing my signature so I know they casino was not really paying attention. But, they don't care they got there money. The check approval company that approved all 4 of the checks is responsible for the money. They wrote 2 $1500 checks, a $800 check and a $1000 check. Can you believe that a check approval company would approve that amount all in the same day??? They were different companies, but still. There was not any money in that account when they were writting checks b/c I had already transferred it into another account on the internet!!!

It just really ticks me off that they got away with it. I mean $4800 in one day is BANK!!! OH, well I learned my lesson and everyone reading should too. DON'T LEAVE YOUR PURSE IN THE CAR!!! EVER!!! I would always leave my purse in the car. I also do not carry a checkbook anymore. I hardly ever used it anyways just habit to have it. I only carry my DL and debit card now!!

There is your story. I am sure they will get caught one of these days, I just hope it is soon so that I can prosecute too!!!!

Mini update....

Ok...so I don't have a lot of time, but I know there are a few of you that are just dying for an update on my life!!!

Not a lot has gone on here lately. Just the usual. Baseball is OVER thank goodness!! So now just the two jobs, church and swimming pool are all that occupy my life. For those of you who know me you know that I l.o.v.e to be in the sun during the summer. It is my fav time of the year. I know it gets hot here, but I really enjoy it! I have been working on my tan and loving every minute of it.

School is out for the boys and they both did wonderfully. Kadence got an award for history, go figure. His teacher said he is a special young man, a walking history book and she can really see him teaching in college someday!! WOW!!!! The boy does love some history. Kourtland did really well too. They were most excited to get the report cards b/c Papaw pays $5 for A's!!!!

Matt is still searching for a job. We aren't having much luck at the present moment! That is not fun....he is planning to sub during the school year if he does not get a job.

Well folks there you have it. My updated life!! How exciting was that?? I know, right? OH, and I have lost about 20 lbs.........now about 25 to go and I will be HAPPY!!!! Go me!!!

Monday, May 19, 2008

Johnathan "Lukas" Wald



So this is my NEW nephew Lukas. Johnathan and Grace FINALLY got him here. Well more Grace, but you get the idea. I am so proud of my "little" brother. They are so cute and I can't wait to hold him and spoil him like crazy. Most of all I cannot wait until he can talk so my kids and I can teach him all of the wonderful things Johnathan and Joseph taught my boys when they were little!!!!!!!!!!


Ya know what they say about paybacks......it's a biiia....well you get the idea there too!! :o) Sorry Grace, but fair is fair!!! Love ya both and just come home for heaven sakes!!! Ok, I am off to shop for stuff for him. Enjoy the pictures!!!
Lukas' favorite Aunt!!!!


Friday, May 2, 2008

MY STUDENT OF THE MONTH!



I forgot to post this too. Kourtland was chosen Student of the Month in April. He was so excited. He had no clue. I just told him I was going to Rise and Shine with him. He couldn't believe that he won. He was so cute. We are so proud of him!!!!!!



My 22nd Birthday!!!!!




Ok, so maybe the title of this blog is not EXACTLY correct, but I prefer to celebrate it that way!!! I do not want to be the age that I really am! I have been fighting it for quite sometime and my boys and Matt remind me often that I am not and will never be 22 again!


I just don't want to get older. It does not sound fun to me at all. I also didn't want to be fat at this particular birthday. I did lose 13 lbs and am working on more so I guess that is something, right??? Anywho here are some pictures of my day and presents. I once again just want to let you "LOYAL" readers how AWESOME my husband is! He is great! Enjoy. And soon I will post a blog about my car getting broken into and my purse stolen. I am just not ready to sit down and take all the time to cry and stress about it anymore. So check back later this week and I will let you in on all the DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THIS WAS WHAT I CAME HOME FROM WORK TO FIND.....ALONG WITH A CERTAIN # OF BALLOONS IN THE FLOOR!!! KOURTLAND POPPED THEM ALL AS SOON AS I GOT HOME TO SEE THEM. AND MATT GOT ME 2 DOZEN ROSES WITH LILLY'S!!!!!


Saturday, April 5, 2008

Tattoo-A-Holic!!

So this is what I woke up too, this wonderful Saturday morning!!! Kourtland is a lover of temporary tattoo's. He had Mom get him some yesterday and she bought him 3 packages. I guess he wanted to see just how many he could get on his arms!! There are more on the back sides of his arms that I did not take pictures of!! I think you get the idea with the front. I love me some Kourtland! He is one crazy kid!! He said "Don't tell Mamaw!" That is Matt's mom and she always gives him grief about his tattoos saying, "Missionaries don't get tattoos". Good thing he isn't a missionary yet, HUH???? Ha!!!!!!!!




Saturday, March 29, 2008

Pine Wood Derby




Kadence had the Pine Wood Derby this week and he came in first place at the church event. So that qualified him to go to "regionals" which was at the High School in VB! We went and it was so ridiculous! There were mothers there complaining that kids were illegally messing with their cars after they were checked in!! Come on!!! It's a stinkin car race! Anywho, while it was not my cup of tea he had an OK time! He didn't place, but hey we can't win them all!!! Here are a few pictures. Yes, he is growing his hair out!! No, I am not crazy about it, but what can you do???